The Fine Line Between Finding Purpose With EB and Letting It Define Me
I live with epidermolysis bullosa (EB), a rare skin condition that makes my skin as fragile as the wings of a butterfly. That’s why we are called “butterfly children.”
I like that name. It makes the disease sound beautiful and innocent, even if it is not. But it’s not all bad. You can definitely live a happy and fulfilled life with this condition.
People always ask me, “What happened to you? Why are you wearing bandages? Does it hurt a lot?” and so on. I’ve been asked so many questions concerning my condition, ranging from obvious to funny to intimate. I understand that. If people don’t know something, they get curious.
For most of my life, I’ve answered them patiently. I believe it’s important that people know about EB and different conditions, and learn that different doesn’t mean “strange” or “bad.” EB may be different from what people are used to, but it’s normal for those who live with it.
It gave me purpose
As patiently as I answer questions and work to raise awareness of my condition, it’s not easy to do. Though I’m used to living with EB after 27 years, it still bothers me sometimes.
I work with the patient organization DEBRA Austria, which supports people with EB. I’ve talked about life with EB on TV and radio, and in newspapers. I’ve given speeches nationally and internationally about my experiences. In a way, I found a career path through my condition. I enjoy telling people what I can do and how fulfilled my life is. It often surprises them that my life is very similar to theirs.
What I love most is giving other people with EB hope and demonstrating that it’s OK to show their scars. I encourage them to do whatever they want, to try to find their own ways of doing things, and to challenge their limits.
Should it define me?
Still, I don’t want EB to define me. I don’t want to just be the person with a rare condition, and I don’t want it to be my only purpose. The world should see more than my condition.
I want it to be a part of me, and I’ve worked hard to accept it as one. I’ve worked hard to love my body and the uniqueness of my skin, to be confident in myself (most of the time), and to find ways to do everything I want to do. I am very proud of that!
Walking the tightrope
There’s a very fine line between letting your condition define you, and letting it make you special. I have faced this dilemma a few times already, and it’s one I need to be well aware of and reconsider often.
Does it still feel OK giving my condition this much space? Am I doing it because I want to or because others expect it from me?
When I listen to my gut, I can usually distinguish between talking about EB as my job and talking about it because I want to. But what I would like to know is: Am I in control of how it defines me?
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